Un Souffle de Renaissance or Breath of the Renaissance is finally a painting I know something about as its me, (Anthony, her youngest son). This was a real struggle to get painted during a brief vacation the year after I graduated from Duke University in the USA. You can see from the diary entries below that she was only able to complete the face and hands while I was there, painting right up to the last minute before I left, with the rest of it being done afterwards. The details of which were fine-tuned from several slow exchanges of letters and photographs through the mail across the Atlantic. Although, some might consider the painting a little busy, everything in there had meaning in my life at that time.
I’ll describe the symbolism starting in the lower right corner and working my way around the painting. The toad, whose name was Tobias, is representative on my education and degree in Zoology and was actually a pet I kept in a terrarium for a short time. Beside him are two small electronic pieces of jewelry that I designed and built that used a small battery and an integrated circuit to flash an LED. These prototypes were the start of what I hoped to be my foot in the door of a business selling the first electronic jewelry, that unfortunately never came to fruition. Behind those is a prism which represents both science and alchemy. As used by Sir Isaac Newton to demonstrate how white light is made up of all colours of light. It also represents the human aura which I had also been researching which is why the colors go across the Vitruvian Man image. This drawing by Leonardo Da Vinci, should need no introduction but in brief it is a study by Leonardo into the various proportions of man and how they are related to each other and the golden ratio. In the painting I am holding some dividers I made that dynamically show this ratio. Unfortunately, they were slightly distorted in their travels and are not accurately portrayed here, see the photos below for how they should look. The Vitruvian Man drawing and dividers illustrate my study and interest into the nature of humans. Beside my right elbow is a book, the classic symbol of passed on knowledge which I felt was the key to this understanding, hence the key on the book. Incidentally, that key is a faithful rendition of my mother’s, none too elaborate, front door key. Beside the book are the circuit drawings for the electronics used in the jewelry and representative of my other interests in our modern technological world such as it was in the 1970’s.
In the background is a statue illustrative of my love of art. She is holding a set of scales as the symbol for Libra, my astrological birth sign, notice that it is not balanced but tipped in the direction of the female form. On the back wall is a wonderful rendition of the seal I designed for myself that my mother cleverly converted to stained glass. I hope one can immediately see a combination of the Yin and Yang and the juxtaposition of the air above the ground and the sun as the source of life on the earth. The final detail is the book of knowledge being guarded by a snake, representative of sin and in the shape of the Greek Alpha symbol. On the floor next to the light beams from the window, is my mother’s cat, PC, short for Pussy Cat. She is symbolic of my love of animals and is there as every worker of the magical arts needs a familiar. The spiral staircase illustrates the required steps upward to enlightenment and I also like spiral staircases as I think they are the most efficient use of space for stairs and harken back to earlier times. Finally and accidentally hidden in the rendering of the painting there is a message about our ability to observation nature.
I find many of the diary entries very interesting even though I was there much of the time and visited with my mother after the painting was finished. Of course, I now feel a little guilty about all the extra work, over a hundred hours, I put her through with the prism, the stairs, stained glass window and all the details but I think she really rose to the occasion and did a fabulous job with all the various elements not to mention overall likeness. Ten years after finishing the painting, she was persuaded to submit it in the media competition at the local Science Fiction Festival in Fayence where it won first place in the painting category, garnering her a diploma and an elaborate cup which she displayed in her atelier for many years.
Diary Entries
September 17, 1976 | Tried to get some charcoal ideas worked out but before this we had to completely rearrange the studio – A. kept ordering me to sit down and tell him what to do – was still in Caftan and feeling weak from flu. |
September 18, 1976 | Got dressed – felt weak with hefty bronchial cough but much better – we left washing up and general mess and started to get the real charcoal drawing on canvas. Was relieved to find that I can be detached enough to get a likeness – only it seems like there are two of us doing the painting as A. has a lot to say about every detail! Felt a bit queer [light headed] a couple of times but got the basic pose in. |
September 19, 1976 | Tried to get drawing done in raw amber, we have a lot of problems to work out. |
September 21, 1976 | The late start, didn’t wake up until after 8:00 AM. Really annoyed at losing a morning’s painting as Anthony had to go to Grasse. Back and started working on background. Lunch and short siesta then more work – lot of trouble doing spiral staircase. |
September 22, 1976 | Took us ages to get things properly set up in the studio but then we really got down to it and I got the face painted in including nose and mouth but not the eyes. It went well though A. said I was a one in a million artist. He has such a lovely smile, I hope I can get it I think he’s a bit vain too, but he has reason. |
September 23, 1976 | Terribly tired after late night 3:00 AM. Consequently late start and I painted the eyes in – laughter over the slightly bloodshot pink rimmed look from hangover, changed mouth – then when A. went shopping at midi, I changed the nose and several other small points – and now have striking resemblance. |
September 24, 1976 | Work: 1hr. Really tired and miserable with it damn it! Again didn’t get started until 11:00 AM after another 3:00 AM late night. |
September 25, 1976 | Work: 2hrs. Much better – got hair painted in, but A. felt tired – did a lot of painting without him – later he said I had lost the smile and made him look sad. |
September 26, 1976 | Work: 1½hrs. A. neck. Got back smile. |
September 27, 1976 | Work: blue shirt and corrections. |
September 28, 1976 | Work: A’s right hand and arm. Woke up determined to make the most of the day and not get weepy, but enjoy it. We got a fairly good start with the painting. Got the right arm and hand in – during the break I suddenly saw where an alteration to left eyebrow, forehead and left side of chin could really make it Anthony – I did it! So happy at last! No siesta though I took a fun photo of A and PC lying in the same position on the sofa. |
September 29, 1976 | Work: A’s left hand two hours. Showed A. some more photos while tea drinking – outside it was gray & raining. Inside I was gray & crying. V. difficult morning but I concentrated on painting A’s left hand and arm – difficult perspective and no light. Was furious with occasional bursts of weeping. Lunch then the dreaded moment of departure, for 6 months or 6 years?? |
September 30, 1976 | At mid morning heard a gentle tapping on my locked door Margie, so understanding and thoughtful came with invite and picnic at the Collette, but didn’t feel like people yet. Gave her coffee. Looking at A’s portrait she said “oh you’ve really got him!” Had good suggestions about left hand. |
October 5, 1976 | Spent all morning doing a scaled watercolor of A’s seal and making it like stained glass. |
October 7, 1976 | Work: 3hrs background. Decided I would feel much happier if A’s painting was finished even though in this weather I should be outdoors doing sketches for cliches. Put feeling of light on spiral staircase and re-did steps again & again & it’s beginning to come – then measured up window and put in circle for seal – 3hrs. work. |
October 8, 1976 | Work: 4hrs seal. Determinably got to work on the stained glass window made up of A’s seal though I was dreading it. V. detailed & difficult. Painted it all in clearly then ‘tonked’ it, IE dulled it by blotting it with Kleenex. Can’t have it pulling the eye away from face. Lunch – short siesta – made some alterations on the window before I was satisfied. |
October 9, 1976 | Work: 2½hrs background. Worked all AM on drawing in more background – toad, prism, tiles, PC[cat] etc. Not easy. After lunch Marianne arrived three hours late to pose for statue but she’s so disarming, impossible not to like her. We talked – then Alain turned up and was astonished at the likeness in A’s portrait he tried to work out prism but finished by saying impossible! |
October 10, 1976 | Work: 3hrs charcoaling background detail. Pouring rain scotched any ideas of outdoor sketching in Seillans – happily enough, settle down to fighting at the mechanics of the prism – and moving PC again – all in charcoal of course. Hours. |
October 11, 1976 | Work: 4½hrs table etc. Heavy rain, black skies and roads like rivers again today. No matter – got cracking on the painting took Polaroid for A’s letter. Launched into painting the desktop – difficulty on tones – realized at lunch time it was flat, dull compared with furniture upstairs must get in reflections & grain. Hot soup & Siesta & back to painting. Put in prism took 2nd Polaroid for A for fun. To PO mail letter. Home and back to painting changed prism again, didn’t stop until 7:00 PM. |
October 16, 1976 | Marianne and Chris joined me shopping at the co-op and carried my basket back. Then M and I had tea talked and finally got down to THE DRAWING. She was very cooperative and ended up semi nude. Did 2 sketches but she didn’t like the lines and so took Polaroids & did a third – better. She left at 8:00 PM |
October 19, 1976 | At 8:40 loud ring below turned out to be a cable from A! ” prism and picture on way letter & dividers is forthcoming, had a happy happy love A” wildly extravagant but nice, bless him. Had a difficult time getting statue right, but got it drawn in properly before lunch. Lunch, then really got stuck into painting but made a right mess of it. Tried to paint the tiles in alternative squares much too busy and dark – then had to go at the wall and that ended up too dark as well! Oh well. I’ll get it – must lighten whole thing it’s the stain glass window that’s calling the tune. |
October 20, 1976 | Work: 6hrs A. background. Was full of unholy glee when I saw the dark gray sky – whacko a whole day on A’s painting and no Natalie! I did phone a message through to make sure. First thing was to re-rule all floorboards, accurately – put a measured strip of paper across canvas and found the wood I was using previously was bent – no wonder it wasn’t working right! After repainting wall and floor – realised that I had never done a tonal sketch – as soon as I did I saw that all the dark & lights had to be reversed!! Horrors. Lunch and 1hr lie down then to work but now with a plan. Worked on till 7:00 PM making 6hrs today. I will win out, but I’m getting v. tense with the various problems of this painting. |
October 21, 1976 | Work: 3½hrs statue. Felt very cheerful and gay in spite of glands still swollen. Nearly went cross-eyed doing the Marianne statue – almost finished when I found legs too long which meant raising pedestal and redrawing… etc. and later I moved it back. |
October 22, 1976 | Work: 4hrs. |
October 23, 1976 | Work: 3hrs. Gosh! The prism, Leonardo’s drawing & a hasty note from A arrived having only taken 4 days! It cost him $1.60 = 7.35f “small packet”. Note said he’s been very busy – educationally. He said ‘Pic looks good’ prism isn’t the original shape I had so means a massive repair job to take out large triangle. So started work late – but went on until 2:00 PM. Painted stained glass window upside down on floor and in perspective at end of the sun’s rays! Really this painting has become a way of life! |
October 24, 1976 | Decided against any painting today let’s give it a break – good thing too with black skies and continuous torrential rain. |
October 25, 1976 | Sybille came over to collect her Larousse – she said about A’s portrait ‘C’est vraiment lui!’ [It’s really him] |
October 28, 1976 | Took 3hrs to paint PC into the picture. She did try and help, by sitting on the shoe box under the easel all morning – but not quite in the right position, she got used to my examining her paws and squinting at her. Trying to make her look adorable squashed her a bit but it comes off. From 4-8pm I battled with the Leonardo drawing in perspective – nearly went berserk trying to get the circle right & then the square, was determined to finish it before supper. If A. has any more bright ideas for paintings, I think he’d better find another artist! Chris’ portrait was a piece of cake compared to this. |
October 31, 1976 | Jean carried the wine up and played with prism pointing out I couldn’t have sun come into two opposite windows!!! He’s right and I hadn’t noticed – oh dear. Got to work later for 3½hrs and painted out old triangular prism and touched up desktop while added – also made book faded red – it has been several colors now and once again the floor – how many times now? |
November 1, 1976 | Work: 4½hrs A. Washed hair & then full of determination to lighten the back wall for the last time – set into work on A’s painting. Couldn’t tell if I had succeeded so took a Polaroid to give me the tonal bounce – but it came out dark at one end so it didn’t help. Then took everything upstairs to catch the one o’clock sun on the prism and found the time taken setting up the easel made the sun go through the prism at the wrong angle! Really this is impossible. Later went on with it from my sketches and got all knotted up because it didn’t look right. |
November 2, 1976 | Spent an hour drawing the prism – then lunch and to Cannes with Jane and Ray. |
November 3, 1976 | Work: 2hrs – Tobias and electronics. This morning went to work on Tobias, the toad, and when I finished I decided that he really steals the picture – looked so wet and scaly I could lift him off the desk! Worked on A’s electronic jewelry pm then posted a letter to mother and Anthony. |
November 4, 1976 | Work: 4hrs – stairwell, book. To work – on the staircase whorl – worked it out in large stones – then decided too large and lost up & round movement – it really drove me mad – at one time had it all squared off in small squares then had to pick out alternate ones anyway – I won. In pm to post … back and worked at painting the book and key. Now dark at 5:30 PM. |
November 5, 1976 | Work: 3½hrs. Prism. One of the few mornings I was really early, was out before 9 AM buying cereal and was in the studio mixing paint for the shirt when the post came – super bumper letter from A. photos of Pierre & gallery, PC, the gerbils & prism etc. I was so excited, couldn’t work! Started painting prism at midi in the sunny lounge. Finally got it! Later got the spectrum rays going on paper and across the hand 3½hrs altogether but finally it’s done! Was v. tense and excited. |
November 9, 1976 | Work 5½hrs. shirt. Woke up bursting with joy and happiness! I feel so young! Sang on and off all day. Spent 3 hrs in the morning re-painting Anthony’s shirt and it’s only in the last hour that I got the feel of it and the color range. After lunch – went on with it for another 21/2 hrs. |
November 12, 1976 | Must ask A. what the room upstairs from his painting is like?! |
December 22, 1976 | Did some more cards and stamped them – Sybille collected them and brought up short letter & electronic blueprints from Anthony, he wants the latter in painting. |
February 2, 1977 | Work: 4hrs A. Painting. Worked AM and PM on Anthony’s painting – darkening the wall again repainting hand and putting in dividers etc. The impact is back on the face again. |
February 3, 1977 | Work: 1½hrs Sybille 4th sitting. 1½hrs background…… Jeanninie came and had idea of title for A. “Un souffle de Renaissance” (A breath of the Renaissance) I like it. |
February 11, 1977 | Work: 2hrs A. 2hrs S. Calmly, for change, worked on Anthony’s portrait – did blueprints on the blank pages and shadows and dividers and shirt and buttons et cetera until it was finished! 101 hours. Afternoon – put in jewelry and last few touches on Sybille’s portrait and at 5:00 PM it was finished! 42½ hours. |

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